Management (or at least the training) was not for me. I don't know if it was the program or myself, but I was too overwhelmed and felt that I would be unhappy doing it. I have too much respect for the company and for myself than to work in a position I wouldn't be my best at. I didn't like the cooking and prep in the back of house, couldn't imagine getting the hang of all the paperwork and line checks that go into opening, and if I'm in the front of the house I want to be serving, not doing table visits and dealing with complaints. I felt disorganized and always in the way, asking stupid questions I should know the answers to.
I told them exactly that, and that I was flattered that I was picked to be moved up, and they were totally understanding that it was not for everyone. I'm kind of hanging in the balance right now, they said they would try to get me back on the serving schedule at my old store ASAP, but I'm not really sure what my options and next steps are.
I'm back on the job hunt, because serving at this location just wasn't quite paying the bills and I'd need a side piece. I kind of feel like a failure, but Boyfriend made me feel better, because he told me it takes a lot of courage to start something new, and even more to admit you don't want to.